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Sunday, January 29th, 2006

10:17 pm

First Entry... So this is my first entry... obviously. I guess I'll just start with the fact that over the past few weeks, I have been seriously considering moving to California. Now if you know me, you know how big of a deal this really is. I am one of those spoiled brats whose parents give her everything she could want or need. I know this, and I want it to end. While my every whim is granted right now, later on it's only going to hurt me. My parents do it because they love me, but its not helping me grow up. They're too blinded by their need for me to stay their "little girl". Whenever I do anything that is responsible, they're in shock. They're so used to doing everything for me that they forget that I am in college and an adult. Now, if you know me, or even if you don't, you're probably wondering why the hell do I want to go to California? Can I possibly get any farther away? Probably not. Getting out from under the smothering of my family isn't the only reason I want to go. In my communications class the other day, my professor was talking about how only one student every few years applies to film school after graduating. And something just clicked. I can't even describe how much that random statement just hit home for me. Movies are the one constant thing that I have liked throughout my entire life. Ever since I was three years old watching violent, disgusting movies with my Dad, I've loved them. I go to the movies at least once a week, and have actually made a couple movies myself over break, granted they're pretty much the worst films ever made but still, I loved every minute of it. I know how impossible it is to break into the film industry, but I know I can do it. I'm young, and I'm stubborn, and I'm smart, I have the world at my feet, and if I don't take this chance now, I'll probably regret it for the rest of my life. I have this chance to be a part of something I love more than anything, and I won't give it up. I can't give it up. Granted, I'm still terrified about actually doing it, moving cross country to a place that I have never been to, and forced to survive on my own. But this is the time when we are supposed to take chances and make mistakes. This feels right, and I know I'm going to do it, probably not this year, or the next, but I will do it. I need this too much to let it go. But first, I got to break the news to the parentals, this is not going to be easy. They will most likely do everything in their power to discourage me from leaving them, but they love me, and I know that they'll eventually see that this is the right thing for me. Current Mood: determined Current Music: Rent (Comment on this)